For some reason, I believed everything that Sam told me. He even convinced me of things that I definitively knew to be true, to be false. The proper term that I am referring to when it comes to him screwing with my head, is "gas-lighting." Sam would make me think I said something that I didn't say, or did something I didn't do. He made me believe that I didn't tell him things that I would swear by that I had. It made me continuously question myself and created an insecurity in me regarding my own judgement. I would feel crazy because of these things. I have always prided myself in my organization and memory skill, so this hit me hard and knocked me down. I soon started to take his word over what my mind remembered because I actually believed him over myself. Crazy, isn't it? How someone can get inside of your head and just tinker around with your thoughts and mess you up like that? No one really likes to admit when someone has done that to them. It makes you feel so out of control because it's almost like you just opened the door for them to do that to you. But it isn't that simple. We don't really purposely open a door for someone to walk right in and destroy our minds. Sometimes we just crack the door open and take a peek and the damn snake just slithers in without us even noticing.
He captured me... even worse, he captured my loved ones right along with me.
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